Tuesday, 1 April 2014

Happenings

Happenings
 
 
Bad things fucking happen everyday
 
Fuck that shit
 
I control my own outcome
 
People stare in disbelief
 
Fuck you
 
I'm real
 
I have flesh
 
Blood
 
Do, say what you want fucking want to me
 
You fuck tards can't change me
 
Only I can fix me
 
My stability is my own choice
 
I choose life and serenity
 
You fucks don't need to believe it
 
I am myself even when
 
I'm not

Thoughtless Motion

Thoughtless Motion

 
Sounds, voices, music
 
Constantly listening
 
Actions, movements, attachments
 
Constantly watching
 
The sounds over come thy body and mind
 
The voices annoy my intelligence
 
The music calms thy soul
 
The actions can't be undone
 
The movements are to fast, to late
 
The attachments for that fuck finally gone
 
I now listen to thy soul, spirit and heart
 
I now just watch and learn
 
 

Alternative Misinterpreted

Alternative Misinterpreted
 
Black, suede, spiked, stilettos
 
Skin tight rocker jeans
 
Flowing Nirvana shirt
 
80s hair, tattoos, piercings
 
Leopard print nails
 
All mistaken
 
Only seen as broken.
 
Damaged
 
Misinterpreted of health and mind
 
Alternative babe
 
Likes to rock the fuck out
 
Intelligence ignored
 
Seen as a manipulator
 
Self mutilation  
 
Non-understandable
 
Scars, blood on her flesh
 
Seen as non sense
 
"She Must be Fucked"
 
Lock her up throw away the key
 
Rocker fucking babe
 
She'll always be!
 
 
 
 
 
   
 


Sunday, 2 June 2013

automatic opening for their misunderstanding

I get mad at shit all the time 

No matter how mad I get

People still miss treat me

Am I letting them

Am I just a person that deserve to be treated like shit



When people see how good and giving of a person you are
 
It's a automatic opening for their misunderstanding of the type of good qualities to give.

Vulnerable Gullibility

Sometimes I feel like i'm bullied a lot
 
I'm so diffrent from others
 
people think its funny to play around with my gullibility
 
 
what gives them the right
 
to sit and point
 
at someone so vulnerable?
 

Sunday, 26 May 2013

Genuinely

I bought a Samsung tablet today, from my bestfriend Rosie. Thanks girl! The reason for my buying this was to blog as much ad I can , to reach out to anyone who needs reaching. I really want to be as open as I can be. This has opened a new door for my capabilities with my writing and reaching out, educating and learning as I go.

Its has been a hell of a drive my whole life, theirs been someone else pushing on the paddle sending me into in the wrong direction for a long time. Today I hold the stiering wheel, I choose not to let anything take control over me ever again.

I'm a fighter and I love fighting and standing strong along side the people I love, not in front or behind.

I do not think it's that from way away from me being fully confident and having a understanding of my self and how I want to be treated and how I sould treat others.

One recently learned that I was holding a grudge against a very nice hard wrong person that has no intention in hurting me or my family in any way, my greatest flaw is how I react to any form of critisum direct or indirect which brings out the strong advocate that always intensely restirs the pot to bring out Truths and strong beliefs.

As many readers can see, is that I'm a to honest of a person in which, can cause heart ache for my self and others.

I don't know of ill ever stop holding grudes against people who have caused harm to me or others, physically or mentally but all I can say is that the only people who have true meaning in my life are that ones who are patient with me and are very; humble, strong willed, honest people with genuine integrity.

For my friends abd family who are reading, all of you amaze me everyday with your strength, love you all.